i understand that no one reads this... and i am way good with that i guess.
it just feels good to ramble sometimes. and i think that is one of the most healing things that was ever invented, rambling that is.
my body and mind are ready for Christmas break. i don't know how much longer i will have any skills for.
it seems that my abilities come and go as they please. i am worried about not being able to accomplish anything in life.

DROWNING
Deep.
down.

don't know where i am going. too bad, so sad.
yeah. it is actually.
what if i get stuck.
everyone says i wont.
but i know i will.

suck. suck. suck.
okay. don't stress.
good.

everyone is dying.
peeling layer after layer out of me.
boy is that hard.
i tend to hurt for other people.
unnecessarily.

okay.
its good.
i am fine.

love much?